That this wouldn't be a depressive blog - and it wont.
But I have one thing that has to get off my chest. If you make a mistake, a big one, partially your fault and partially bad sodding luck, how can you make it right.
It seems you can't, or not in the eyes of some people. If a heartfelt apology isnt enough then maybe you have to reevaluate a friend.
Who knows...I've done my part, if its meant, then I guess I'll sever ties, I can move on in a couple months anyway. I guess I just never considered an era ending like this, I kinda expected more.
For me....results were important and life changing, I wish I could have shared it with them.
Thats all the moody for now