2. A euromillions win.
3. That I could decide what it is that I want. I need direction, need a path. Without blowing my own trumpet I'm pretty good at whatever I do. I'm an excellent waitress, a damn good student, I leave the other interns miles behind, but I keep finding myself moving in a circle. I'm so frustrated I could cry. I can't seem to get beyond where I was last summer, and I thought I had. With work, planning, money, men, there's a circularity and it's really scaring me.